I find myself dreaming

That I am dreaming

Dreaming that I am

Sleeping and I am

Actually able to see

Myself lying down

I am having a hard

Time sleeping well

I am able to percive

I am able to sense

better yet I see

A shape a humanoid

Looking shape chalk

White lying down

Next to my left  side

This shape which could

Be a succubi be

It a succubus is

Draining energy away

From me or so I feel

I get a message saying that

All of this experiences are

Related to Cocaine and

I also feel the nearnest of

Death

four or five hours before

I  went to sleep

I had broken my own

Promise not to take any

Cocaine no matter what

I had not touched the stuff

For little over two weeks

But today when it was offered

to me at a party I took it

Like an idiot I took it

Through my left nostril

All along i have been repeating

To myself and others

The mantra that Cocaine

Breaks down your will power

Sure enough it did

That night broke mine

I was not able to resist

During that night I was

feeling my body divided in two

The feeling I got was that certain

Spiritual Forces or Entities find

The door, a door into our bodies

Through the type of drugs that we

Ingest in this case cocaine

I did not feel that the spirit shape

Lying next to me was at all Benefic

Or if it was benefic it was so

In a negative  kind of way

That is by bringing me

Close to the feeling od death

Since I could Not tear myself

Away from this humanoid 

Shape form  that was drining

My energy and life away

I could not wake up

Finally I was able to wae up

My mouth was very dry

My tongue was olso very dry

as if i had been sleeping

with my Mouth wide open

I was death tired and my

Left side was aching

Afterwars after a long vigil

I was able to sleep further

a few more hours

That sleep also brought very intense

vivid disturbing images and dreams

in which i was always fighting

and wrestling with different

humanoid shapes and forms

@salvador rosillo1985

Museum salvador rosillo 02/16/2006